Selasa, 13 September 2011
trying to accept things in life (:
congrats to me for crying over stupid things
i dont get it, why do i have to feel so hurt? its not a big deal since i have been prepared fer this. still, it hurts me. why did you do this to me, i know u're hurting too. both of us tana mengalah kan? kalau dulu, u akan mengalah. you akan datang cari i, u akan cakap BUKANBUKAN kalau i tak accept you semula tapi i tak pernah rimas. malah, i lagi suka cause i nampak effort dan keikhlasan you. Now we are back together and you, AHAD bersamaan 11.09.11 its ours 2 months being together eventtho its full of sour moments after all. means, its on 11 july which is on my birthday - do you still remember? i choose that date, cause i wanna make this relationship special to me and for us. i thought we could make it together and again. im giving u chance cause i thought you really gonna change, yes you are. u have changed but then becoming someone who i dont really know. now, u're so careless when i said that i wanna leave you, you did prevent me at first, but after that u started to ignore me just like before . thanks to you fer make me cry again, since this is not my first time, the pain is much more greater. so thanks to you again that i cry so HARD, and i feel much relieved. thanks fer you fer make me to realize that how unimportant i am in your life. thanks fer letting me know earlier.
you're not just my boyfriend, i also adore you as my best friend, my great great friend, you know how much i love my bestfriend? so i hope u knw how it feel when someone you love tend to treat you like you are so not important anymore. you, you are the greatest thngs in my life, the third important person in my life after my family my glfrs and then YOU. you, it aint easy to love people, it takes so much time fer me to love you and same goes to hate and forget you. i knw you are a good guy, i know i pernah treat you dengan sangat kejam, tp you know why kan. after all, i never betray our relationship. i miss you so much, you know how i felt when we didnt meet for a long time? I WISH YOU KNOW. you, i know, i believe that there a lot of moment where you really2 love me, its just that something you always make a reason for me to doubt your love, i cant prevent myself to acting like a jerk . i know im wrong, you can have and keep all of your EGO with you cause i believe that can cure you too. im damn sorry for everything you, but i never stop you and halang you from leaving me. malah, i always said that if you wanna go just go but you are the one choose to stay. the longer u stay, the more i started to fall towards you, the more my love fer you grow.
my wish, if you really really really cant stand with me, i'll never stop u from leaving me but please say it to me not to walk away just like that, since we started in a good way so please end it in a good way. last but not least, thankyoufereverything , i know i have lotsa kekurangan . you deserve someone better , im happy as long u're happy too (;
I LOVE YOU 12:14 PTG